I’m 61 years old today. Wow, in some camps I qualify for seniorship or is it senioritis or just senile-itis…Hum! Ya’ll have to decide on that one.
And so I am getting old, well older as my mother would say. I might as well admit that to myself. And that is the hardest part – admission to one’s self that something obvious is happening but a part of me doesn’t want to let it sink in.
And yet as I wrote a few months ago in my blog titled A Two Dimensional Life, God breaks into our present in order to show us how to live each day fully before Him rather than allow the past regrets and/or the future worries to conquer us. As we get older, we tend to lean more on that past/regret side and need to watch ourselves closely so that we don’t fall prey to living a one or two dimensional life.
It isn’t easy to live in the present when you desire for certain things to fall into place. Yet at the same time you know there are promises still waiting to be fulfilled and time seems to be running out, or we seem to be running out of options and gas!
So today, at this juncture, I can only enjoy this day, knowing in my heart that it is pregnant with futurity and that only the Lord knows what lies ahead, when promises and dreams come to fulfillment and how they come to pass under his redeeming thumb.
So, yes Lord. I choose to live today for that day. I choose to trust You as best I can for now that You will answer my prayer for this year – that You show me ways to experience joy and bring joy to others, that unique gifting where past and present collide into witty acts of purpose.
And that: I not stay more buried in my losses than aware of my gains.”(Joan Chittister – The Gift of Years)
She goes on to say: A blessing of these years is the transformation of the self to be, at long last, the self I have been becoming all my life – an oasis of serenity in a world gone sour on age, the very acme of life.
Proverbs 3:5-6 says: Trust God from the bottom of your heart; don’t try to figure out everything on your own. Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go; he’s the one who will keep you on track. (Message Bible)
So today I choose to believe that the best is yet to be. I choose to live in the present, to enjoy this day, this April 18th birthday day!