To sleep or not to sleep. That is the dire predicament I found myself in the other night. I tend to be a light sleeper anyway so just throw in some stress be it physical work, be it heavy duty warfare, be it following my ‘to do’ list, be it looking forward to and trying to get ready for new grandbabies or our youngest child’s wedding. Wait. WEDDING. WOW. NOW. Just a few days left until that big and wonderful day and well, I am …not sleeping. My body feels physically stressed. My mind can’t seem to stay on any thought that is a bit deep that requires more energy than the ‘just give me the bottom line’ information type thought.
And that is where I’ve been lately. Tied to my ‘to do’ lists because if I didn’t have those lists I would be sunk.
So with John and Andrea’s wedding mere days away, family coming into town, a shower to host and a mountain (well, actually for me the mother of the groom not the mother of the bride, it’s just a big hill) of things to get done, my 60 year old body was beginning to feel a bit beat up.
Perhaps it was the fact that I spent the other evening touching up walls with new paint and then painting just a bit more… and more. I can do this! Not! What was I thinking? You get the picture.
Perhaps it was the first of several grocery trips and cooking binges that I happily endured, including lugging home some 16 liters of pop that just about did me in.
I say happily endured because it meant I got to cross off several lines of my very organized and treasured ‘to do’ list.
Back to the other night. I couldn’t sleep. I was wired, was worried, was tired. Couldn’t sleep. Didn’t sleep.
Nighty night wasn’t happening. What happened to the “my yoke is easy, my burden is light’ stuff?
Ah ha! This simple truth came back to me once again. My super and treasured ‘to do’ list had become the yoke of choice. No wonder I was having trouble enjoying the ride of the process, the anticipation, the fun that weddings bring. And the honor that comes when the wedding is your child’s wedding. Hmmm…
I best let Jesus unbuckle that yoke and place His yoke upon my shoulders. If not, I might miss out on the joy of the process of getting ready for this awesome celebration. Worse yet, I might miss out on His rest and all the gifts that come with it especially the gift of His Presence in all parts of my life.
You see, His yoke is the present, the NOW, today. Anything we carry from yesterday that isn’t ours to carry or any worries about tomorrow that we project onto this day, this NOW, today becomes our yoke. A heavy, cumbersome yoke.
So today, I take to heart His words that are restorative and comforting. Much more potent than a good ‘nighty night’s’ sleep.
In Matthew 11:28-30, Jesus says: Come to me, all who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.
So I am determined to let Him place His yoke of today on my shoulders. I am determined to enjoy His Presence in the midst of all the ‘to do’ and I am determined to enjoy a full ‘nighty night’s’ sleep from here on out.